OH MY CHUCK
I never use my account here and be all posty, but, I feel the need to share the awfulness of my brain, and what SPN has truly done to me.
So, I had this dream where, Misha and his wife were going to COME TO MY HOUSE for this like, meet a fan deal, for a half hour i think. so, they come earlier, I'm not ready, and look MY WORST. I try to overcome this and realize:
A. I am neither Vicky nor Dean, so Misha doesn't give a crap how I look, he's TAKEN
B. I need to enjoy this for the small time I have and know it is my dream come true.
C They ignore me and my family, use our computers and restrooms, and generally make us feel like a real pain and intrusive on their world.
D. I want to cry, but still run around trying to serve them and make happy.
E. I realize I have nothing to even talk with them about of "import" so I give up and do dishes while they do what they want
F. I eavesdrop and here them have a pow wow on their Skype with ZACHARIAH about ways to improve their time on the road, so they don't have to stop at their down time locations to hear with the "hungry sad looking people" as they DO feel somewhat wrong about it.
G. So I decide to suck it up, and talk to Misha, tell him I had no idea we were the "stop down time location" that I was having the "fan come true" package, and if I had known, I would have adjusted my behavior accordingly.
H. Realize the room we are using to speak in smells INCREDIBLY like body odor.
I. It is time for Misha and Vicky to leave
J. Vicky uses my laptop fo make a sticky note that a great money making product would be recordings of Misha's during fight scenes, (ugh, ahhhh, umph) *hell yeah I'd pay for that*
K. I finally waking up, and not to Cas saying "hello Robyn" in a deep gravelly voice that makes me shiver,either
WTF?!!!! SPN angst has ruined me. I am unable to even have a small fan fantasy dream that does not seem like my own version of Luci's playground (sans Sammy for fuck's sake)
I really do feel like crying and shaking.
And feel so embarassed I contemplate not reading porn fics or ANY fics anymore.
ummm, I needed to share this.
*decides sleep is overacted after all and that I will NOT partake of that ever again.*