Hello world, to anyone who may remember me. I have wonderful friends here that I have just abandoned, not because I really wanted to. So I want to say a few things. Around Christmas time, I was assaulted in a grocery store parking lot. I was gravely injured, life lighted, and am lucky to still be living. I have been in physical therapy since then. To say it is a nightmare is no way close to covering it. As a mother of three, I had to hang on, although much of the time I didn't want to. Through all of this, I still have my Dean, Cas, and Sam. The strangest thing about it is, I could hardly allow myself to think about them, because they are so everything to me *silly fangirl, proud of it* And I have such a self hatred that I felt like I didn't deserve to feel good. Does this make any sense to anyone? I punish myself for an attack that was in no way my fault. The mind and heart are so mysterious. So, I do not want to feel sorry for myself, that does no one good. I wanted to let you all know, I am sorry to have been so far from you. I am doing a bit better, and I am trying to be closer to my family and friends again. I am reading again, and it makes me feel so good, (fluffy, angsty, porny, ALL of it!!!) And i really thank God for Supernatural, and you all. I will be trying to get to know you again, and hope someone still has patience and affection for me. And, in my old traditional way, I have to give you a fic rec!!! LOL. This is a Goodbye Stranger perspective. It is breathtaking, if you have time, READ it. You will never be disappointed. http://archiveofourown.org/works/747324 I hope life has been treating you well friends. Much, much love goes out to you. And, long live Supernatural, Destiel, and awesome!Sammy :)
So, I am trying something new here. I am in some sharing email groups, for movies, music, tv, etc. I use Pando, and am trying to learn how to share via the web. This is my test run, I am trying to share last night's episode of SPN..(which gutted me, see prior entry) Anyhow, if anyone sees this, or has the heart to give it a go, would you let me know if it works? THANKS guys!!!
I feel the need to just come to my journal and say, What the Fuck. Screw you Supernatural, you have officially done me in with this episode. I wanted our boys to work things out, yes, but NOT for Benny to go Adios, and CAS, omg my BB CAAASSSS what are they doing to you. I feel like puking. Everything hurts. Alfie is dead, by Cas's hands. Cas has been tortured. Why can't we enjoy the boys being together again, without the absolute PAIN and sorrow of everything else that is happening? I need fic. Lots of happy everyone is ok fic. Guh. Oh on a side note, buh bye Amelia. You won't be missed. Sorry, that whole arc did not do a thing for me.
I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday!! Mine was overflowing with blessings, I love my family, my kids, so very much. However, setting up said kid's ipads ipods and such, is way more time consuming and aggravating then the assembly of toys when they were younger. I did not think this was possible! Ran across this tonight, I'd never seen it, I love it!!! GABRIEL!!! I shall never let him go! xoxoxo to all, so much love for you :)
Hi guys! Just had to share this image I found on Facebook tonight. I am 100% positive this is Misha:
Things are okay on my end, I flipping loved the last episode of SPN. AND just saw this in my inbox and I am a happy girl: [upcoming] I am currently immersing myself in all the awesome DeanCas BB fics coming out, and RL is annoyingly distracting and interrupting me. Sigh, such is the life of a fangirl. In conclusion, I'd like to sum up my feelings on relationships as such:
Hello world *peers out* I haven't been out to play much, there's been alot going on personally for me. My Dad had a HA about 2 weeks ago, thank God he's recovering, but it's been pretty rough. Also, my oldest son, Keenan, has been in the playoffs for his senior year, a very exciting time! Recently we had senior night, where each player walks the field with his parent and gets his picture taken. it was such a special night, and he told me how much he loved me and how grateful for everything he is, and lemme tell ya, this is not something my kiddo says often. So it was precious. He was very tearful about the ending of his football years in HS, and how much it has meant to him. Again, he's not one to show that, so it made it so bittersweet. I'm so fearful of what his future holds. he hates school, says he wants to go into the military, and that just frightens me. This past weekend, my brother and sister in law, and their kids came up. This was a joyful event, b/c they have been separated for quite some time. It really has torn their family, and our whole family to bits. My neice and neph are 6 and 2, it's been hard. My neice Mady, especially, (6) she screams and cries every single day for her Dad, (my brother) b/c my sister in law had to move out, and the kids went w her. Not to say my brother didn't see them every day, it was not that kind of dispute, but you know, for a kid, it's a whole new world, and just seeing your Dad after living with him, is hard. for all of them. Anyway, this weekend, seems like they are going to try, and it's a blessing. We don't get to see them often, they live pretty far from us, so it's always great when they are here. I love being Auntie Robyn to Madelyn, and On Roby to Logan, lol. They are precious. So, anyhow, that' what's been up with me, if anyone is listening LOL! ONTO awesome Destiel! In my mailbox tonight, an update in the dean cas comm, blew my mind. It's a leaving purg fic, has some Benny, and is astonishingly gorgeous with dean and Cas allowing themselves to love eachother. it is the stuff I live on, for sure. This is so what I want canon to be, so, *snaps Gabriel fingers* it is! Please please do yourself a favor and read it. And leave tons of love for the author. Let her know I sent ya if you think of it, b/c I want her to know how knockout gorgeous her work is! I love you guys! Special shoutout to peeps I miss lynwen tenoko1 embrace_spn princess_aleera ivydevoss jarithka misachan xlamentcas you guys own special parts of my heart. And also, a big thanks to my girl, deans_fetish b/c she makes me smile and laugh every day with her random thoughts. I am blessed in this community, to have found you all! fic link: http://cymbalism219.livejournal.com/143222.html