Hello world, to anyone who may remember me. I have wonderful friends here that I have just abandoned, not because I really wanted to. So I want to say a few things.
Around Christmas time, I was assaulted in a grocery store parking lot. I was gravely injured, life lighted, and am lucky to still be living. I have been in physical therapy since then. To say it is a nightmare is no way close to covering it. As a mother of three, I had to hang on, although much of the time I didn't want to. Through all of this, I still have my Dean, Cas, and Sam. The strangest thing about it is, I could hardly allow myself to think about them, because they are so everything to me *silly fangirl, proud of it* And I have such a self hatred that I felt like I didn't deserve to feel good. Does this make any sense to anyone? I punish myself for an attack that was in no way my fault. The mind and heart are so mysterious.
So, I do not want to feel sorry for myself, that does no one good. I wanted to let you all know, I am sorry to have been so far from you. I am doing a bit better, and I am trying to be closer to my family and friends again. I am reading again, and it makes me feel so good, (fluffy, angsty, porny, ALL of it!!!) And i really thank God for Supernatural, and you all. I will be trying to get to know you again, and hope someone still has patience and affection for me.
And, in my old traditional way, I have to give you a fic rec!!! LOL. This is a Goodbye Stranger perspective. It is breathtaking, if you have time, READ it. You will never be disappointed. http://archiveofourown.org/works/747324
I hope life has been treating you well friends. Much, much love goes out to you.
And, long live Supernatural, Destiel, and awesome!Sammy :)