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29th-Apr-2013 02:29 am
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Hello world, to anyone who may remember me. I have wonderful friends here that I have just abandoned, not because I really wanted to. So I want to say a few things.
Around Christmas time, I was assaulted in a grocery store parking lot. I was gravely injured, life lighted, and am lucky to still be living. I have been in physical therapy since then. To say it is a nightmare is no way close to covering it. As a mother of three, I had to hang on, although much of the time I didn't want to. Through all of this, I still have my Dean, Cas, and Sam. The strangest thing about it is, I could hardly allow myself to think about them, because they are so everything to me *silly fangirl, proud of it* And I have such a self hatred that I felt like I didn't deserve to feel good. Does this make any sense to anyone? I punish myself for an attack that was in no way my fault. The mind and heart are so mysterious.
So, I do not want to feel sorry for myself, that does no one good. I wanted to let you all know, I am sorry to have been so far from you. I am doing a bit better, and I am trying to be closer to my family and friends again. I am reading again, and it makes me feel so good, (fluffy, angsty, porny, ALL of it!!!) And i really thank God for Supernatural, and you all. I will be trying to get to know you again, and hope someone still has patience and affection for me.
And, in my old traditional way, I have to give you a fic rec!!! LOL. This is a Goodbye Stranger perspective. It is breathtaking, if you have time, READ it. You will never be disappointed.
I hope life has been treating you well friends. Much, much love goes out to you.
And, long live Supernatural, Destiel, and awesome!Sammy :)
29th-Apr-2013 06:50 am (UTC)

Bloody hell! So very happy to see you posting - and especially so, given this horrible news. Much love to you! *huuugs*
29th-Apr-2013 07:52 am (UTC)
*dancing my happy dance* THANK YOU sweet pie!! I know life moves fast for all of us, and I feel nervous and sad thinking I've lost my lifelines. I'm so glad you are still here with me! Now......whatcha been writing lately? Anything? (runs off to stalk you as ruthlessly as I ever did)
Also...have you seen the Calgory Misha panel? *heart thuds* it is entirely unfair to have such a sexy perfect man such as this, tormenting us!
kisses love!
29th-Apr-2013 01:12 pm (UTC)
So sorry to hear you have been through all of that. How horrible, and I can only imagine how much harder it is with the kids.

I hear you about Sam and Dean and Cas meaning so much to you... I feel silly saying it too, but somedays, this fandom is all that gets me through all the regular crap in my life. I hope they continue to help you on your way.

29th-Apr-2013 02:44 pm (UTC)
Oh my Gosh. How scary. My dear sweetie. I am so sorry. Stay strong. For your kids, yourself and us. :)


Edited at 2013-04-29 02:45 pm (UTC)
29th-Apr-2013 02:55 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry that happened to you, and I'm so glad you hung on to who you are. My prayers go out to you and your family, that you'll continue to recover in the year to come. I'm sure an ordeal like that really does damage your spirit. Thank you for staying strong and sharing your story with us, and I hope you continue to find happiness in our fandom family. SPN is so often a welcome distraction for us all.

If there's anything I can do you make you feel better or help out your inner fangirl, let me know.
29th-Apr-2013 10:33 pm (UTC)
Oh, Robyn! I am so sorry. I had no idea. I am so very grateful you still exist in the world for your friends and family. You've always been such a powerfully positive presence—it sounds like that strength of will has carried you far. I hope you continue to recover. You have no reason to apologize, no reason to blame yourself, and you definitely deserve to feel good. Welcome back to fandom! *hugs you*
29th-Apr-2013 10:55 pm (UTC)
Oh dearie! I'm so sorry for that terrible experience--you sound like you've had a rough year. I sincerely hope things look up for you.

(And JFC, that fic you recced, MAN--I love that!)
30th-Apr-2013 12:33 am (UTC) - thank you!
I am so overwhelmed and grateful for your support, and other friends who are here right away!!! It means more than I can possibly express. thank you :D
I'm soooo glad you read the fic. Lord it's gorgeous!!!
29th-Apr-2013 11:41 pm (UTC)
Big hugs to you. Welcome back. Take care of yourself. <3 We care.
30th-Apr-2013 01:27 am (UTC)

Oh my goodness, how awful. I am so sorry to hear this! I can't imagine how horrifying that must have been for you. In a way I can understand, you almost think "how could I let this happen, I must have done something to deserve it." I had similar thoughts after I was hit by a car crossing the street almost 6 years ago. I'd say "It's my fault, if only I hadn't taken that walk that day, this wouldn't have happened." But the support of my family and friends really kept me going and helped heal me. Hopefully you have a really good support system in place too (well, heck, you've got my support definitely, hopefully that counts for something :)).

Please don't apologize hon, I totally understand. You've been through so much and I am so glad to have an update from you. I'm sure it will take a while to recover, but you will make it - I know you will!

Thanks for the rec! Been a while since I've read some fic.
30th-Apr-2013 11:03 am (UTC)
*hugs* I'm so sorry you had to go through that! I hope you are well on the mend and that your family are spoiling you a bit ;)

I'm glad to see you back, and I will add that fic to my to-read list xD
30th-Apr-2013 06:33 pm (UTC)
Hey there,

I'm not sure we we've been super chatty before but of all the times to delurk and offer you the worlds biggest hug, this is it. I'm so glad to hear you're feeling a little better and up to ducking your head back into fandom crazy goodness.

So much love to you. It sounds like you've been amazingly strong and it's so nice to see you back!

30th-Apr-2013 07:04 pm (UTC)
I was thinking of you a lot, I was thinking of where you could be (I thought real life may have grabbed you too tightly this time), but I'd never thought this could have happened with you ;______;
I was worrying a little by now but I'm worrying a lot now.
It's not your mistake, dear, and you should not punish yourself. It wasn't and it's not. You were at a wrong place in a wrong time, but even that it's not your fault. It's the fucking fault of your attacker who should rot in hell, taken care by Crowley.
/hugs you/ It's okay if you feel like this. Even it's okay if you feel sorry for yourself. Dear, it's... I know you don't need any explanation because it happened with you, but it's a damn suck situation. Something which should have happened with you. And it's not fair.

I'm glad you wrote this post, and I hope as time goes by, you'll feel better </333 Hang in there, okay? We still can wait for you.
30th-Apr-2013 09:12 pm (UTC)
My goodness, how absolutely horrible D: So glad you're doing well on the road to recovery bb <3
6th-Jul-2013 05:32 pm (UTC) - =O
Happy Birthday, sweetie! =) hope it's a good one! xx
6th-Jul-2013 05:34 pm (UTC)
My goodness...that's terrifying. If it's any comfort, I think you're rather amazing. Your children are lucky to have you. Take care, stay safe! xx
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