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Family Don't End With Blood
6th-Aug-2012 04:52 pm
Sammy bitchfacin like a boss

I never use my account here and be all posty, but, I feel the need to share the awfulness of my brain, and what SPN has truly done to me.

So, I had this dream where, Misha and his wife were going to COME TO MY HOUSE for this like, meet a fan deal, for a half hour i think. so, they come earlier, I'm not ready, and look MY WORST. I try to overcome this and realize:
A.  I am neither Vicky nor Dean, so Misha doesn't give a crap how I look, he's TAKEN
B. I need to enjoy this for the small time I have and know it is my dream come true.

C They ignore me and my family, use our computers and restrooms, and generally make us feel like a real pain and intrusive on their world.
D. I want to cry, but still run around trying to serve them and make happy.
E. I realize I have nothing to even talk with them about of "import" so I give up and do dishes while they do what they want
F. I eavesdrop and here them have a pow wow on their Skype with ZACHARIAH about ways to improve their time on the road, so they don't have to stop at their down time locations to hear with the "hungry sad looking people" as they DO feel somewhat wrong about it.
G. So I decide to suck it up, and talk to Misha, tell  him I had no idea we were the "stop down time location" that I was having the "fan come true" package, and if I had known, I would have adjusted my behavior accordingly.
H. Realize the room we are using to speak in smells INCREDIBLY like body odor.
I. It is time for Misha and Vicky to leave
J. Vicky uses my laptop fo make a sticky note that a great money making product would be recordings of Misha's during fight scenes, (ugh,  ahhhh, umph)  *hell yeah I'd pay for that*
K.   I finally waking up, and not to Cas saying "hello Robyn" in a deep gravelly voice that makes me shiver,either

WTF?!!!! SPN angst has ruined me. I am unable to even have a small fan fantasy dream that does not seem like my own version of Luci's playground (sans Sammy for fuck's sake)
I really do feel like crying and shaking.
And feel so embarassed I contemplate not reading porn fics or ANY fics anymore.

ummm, I needed to share this.
So, yeah,
*shakes head*
*decides sleep is overacted after all and that I will NOT partake of that ever again.*
6th-Aug-2012 08:59 pm (UTC)
Now THAT is a funny dream!! I know you can't see it that way now, seeing as you are all traumatized and all, but one day, you'll be able to look back on this and laugh.

9th-Aug-2012 04:47 am (UTC) - U r right!
Thanks for responding to me, lol, I didn't really think anyone would, i just needed to get it out, and wanted it somewhere that I could reference for myself, as I'm writing a ficlet somewhat around this now.
the feelings are intense though right!
6th-Aug-2012 09:01 pm (UTC)
Sleep and I don't get on, so I completely understand your desire not to go to sleep after a dream like that.
7th-Aug-2012 12:26 am (UTC)

If it makes you feel any better, I had a pretty disappointing dream about Jared 4 years or so ago. I was meeting him for the first time at a con, I was all excited and thinking of what I could ask him to do for my photo op. They announce he'll be a little late, he comes in late looking kind of disheveled and unhappy. He apologizes to us and says "It's just been hard with Winston dying." I'm thinking "wtf, he has another dog?? Why didn't I know that?" Then it's time for my photo op and I give him my condolences, telling him "I know what it's like, I've had to say goodbye to 2 dogs." He looks at me strangely and tells me that Winston wasn't a dog, he was a pot-bellied pig. So then his mood is still low-key and as the photographer is going to take the pic, Jared looks at his watch and says in this annoyed tone "Do we really have time for this?"

Needless to say I was kinda sad when I woke up. Although I did have a few nice Jared dreams since then that have made up for it, but I remember the disappointment when I woke up from that one.
9th-Aug-2012 04:43 am (UTC) - I love you
Wanting to say I LOVE YOU for your response here :)
I studied psychology, and I know our dreams are the way we try to navigate our emotions. But it never fails to amaze me how one dream, ( or a few strung together I guess) can leave you feeling, sometimes for days. I am trying to write something fic related to this, trying to work thru all this muck now lol. But your dream, omg, I laughed so hard! Then I also felt sad, as I'm sure it was a hard one to "shake off" so to speak.
And, Jared is like love of my life really, so, I'm a bit pissed I didn't know about Winston myself ;-p
hmm, we need to dreamscape more often whoooo hooooo!
9th-Aug-2012 02:16 pm (UTC) - Re: I love you
Aw thank you hon! :)

I've always been curious about dreams and trying to analyze them, probably ever since high school. When I had that dream, it was a little over a month before I was attending a SPN con in Chicago. I guess I was a little worried that my experience would turn out disappointing. Luckily it wasn't. *phew* LOL I have to admit when I woke up I was amused at the idea of Jared having a pot-bellied pig named Winston, but then the thought of the way he was acting kicked in and made me all sad-faced.

I have had much better dreams of him, mostly in con settings again, that I only wish were real!

Can't wait to dream-scape again :D And if you come up with something fic-related I'd love to read it!
7th-Aug-2012 07:46 am (UTC)
Oh honey, it's only a dream. And some say that what happens in a dream is the opposite of what happens in real life. :)
9th-Aug-2012 04:45 am (UTC) - I approve of this message
Wow, yep, I like your thinkin, so, do you know then, when Misha is coming to see me? And actually, tell him to just leave Vicky home, kk?
Thanks for answering me!
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